I fear of rejecting people..whenever someone needs help, i will try my best to help them,be there for them everytime.
I love treating people good,dont like to see them upset,it makes me feel good and happy.
Always saying yes to people,unable to reject them,and ended up becomes a habit ?being taken for granted?

Sorry is also another word in my dictionary which i use quite often besides Yes.
I apologise quite often.Sometimes even small little things,and even things which is not my fault?why?why do i become this way?I really dont know...I just dont want to cause any unhappiness to anyone..I want them to be happy..

Love to smile,seeing people smiling makes me feel happy too..

I give my trust to everyone whom i know..I believe in everyone..get influenced by people easily,but at some points i'm stubborn too..

I care for everyone around me..
and people who cares for me..says "i'm too nice to people,some people are taking me for granted,making use of me..How many woman are such type of person who tends to please everyone else first and never think about themselves?.I cant make everyone happy,I'm not a wonderwoman.I need to care for myself. "

To me,
as long as i'm being appreciated,
as long as my kindness are not taken for granted,
as long as you dont do things which hurt me alot..-though i will forgive you..but i cant say that at one point of time i will not be able to take it,if it keeps happening..i will burst too..
as long as you will be happy,
as long as you dont make me doubt my trust for you

I'll be more than willing to do anything for you.

Too many requests this month from friends & families...makes me feel tired..
suddenly i feel tired of helping people who are making use of me.I guess some of you know whom i referring to.

anyway...its super tired,...things that are hurting me have been happening..and i feel sad..lost trust to some people,some things around me..

and i hate this.i hate the feeling of doubting..the feeling of unsure..and lost trust..

am i too naive?too easy to get bullied?too easy to pleased?
because everything are so easy to get through?at the end,i hurt myself?

time to do something about it?
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Have anyone watch You're My Destiny/Fated to Love You( 命中注定我愛你 / Ming Zhong Zhu Ding Wo Ai Ni )Taiwanese Tv Drama?
I found myself enjoying this Taiwanese drama and I can’t stop watching it. It’s probably the best in the Taiwanese drama history. They received good ratings and high viewership.I have completed watching it..and i'm watching it again.cos somehow this story relates to me?I found myself being that person at times..i hope to learn something from this show and build up my confidence and character.:)

Catch this if you have not.great story.highly recommended.

http://www.mysoju.com/fated-to-love-you/

Genre: Comedy/Romance

Synopsis:
Everybody calls Xin Yi a Post-it Note Girl: you can use whenever you need and throw away whenever you want. Soft and full with compassion, Xin Yi cares about people's feeling towards her, that's why she always struggling to be good to other people, and fall in love very easily with other as well. One day, she spent a huge number of travel fees on Love Cruise in order to hold her fickle boyfriend Gu Chi back. On the journey, she found herself accidentally had one night stand with a strange guy, and found out Gu Chi left her for having an affair with a wealthy widow. After a month, Xin Yi is even upset as for having the strange guy's baby. The guy whom Xin Yi slept with is Ji Cun Xi. Due to genetic factor, his family is lack of male who can inherit the family blood, and this worries Zhen Zhu grandma a lot. However, Zhen Zhu grandma coincidently found out that Xin Yi is having Cun Xi's baby, thus she forces Cun Xi to marry Xin Yi and requires both of them to start dating and go out together. When rich yet handsome Ji Cun Xi met with ordinary office lady Chen Xin Yi, would it be a sign of trouble or the departure towards the road of happiness?...

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Don’t Want to Understand

不想懂得 - 張韶涵
Don’t Want to Understand – Angela Chang



当世界 不知不觉的变了
When the world changed unknowingly

有时候 我怀念以前的我
Sometimes I miss the way I used to be

作的梦 虽然远远的
Even though my dreams are far fetched

想像是 一种快乐
Just thinking about it is a kind of happiness


拥有了 同时也失去什麼
After gaining something, what have I lost at the same time?

而眷恋 原来会带来软弱
And longing for love will actually bring out my weakness

你让我在雾里成熟
You’ve allowed me to grow up in the mist

心开始曲折
My hearts starts to feel complicated


我不想舍得 不想懂得
I don’t want to let go, I don’t want to understand

是谁惹谁 言不由衷
Regardless of who provoked who, we didn’t mean it in our words

说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
Hurting each other with lies, is all due to our feeling of insecurity

怕抱不紧什麼
Because we are afraid of not being able to grasp something


我不想舍得 不想懂得
I don’t want to let go, I don’t want to understand

谁说割爱 才更深刻
Who said that giving up your love will be more memorable?

彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
Relying on each other is love not burden

互相照顾就是幸福的
Caring for each other is happiness.


当世界 不知不觉的变了
When the world changed unknowingly

有时候 我怀念以前的我
Sometimes I miss the way I used to be

作的梦 虽然远远的
Even though my dreams are far fetched

想像是 一种快乐
Just thinking about it is a kind of happiness


拥有了 同时也失去什麼
After gaining something, what have I lost at the same time?

而眷恋 原来会带来软弱
And longing for love will actually bring out my weakness

你让我在雾里成熟
You’ve allowed me to grow up in the mist

心开始曲折
My hearts starts to feel complicated


我不想舍得 不想懂得
I don’t want to let go, I don’t want to understand

是谁惹谁 言不由衷
Regardless of who provoked who, we didn’t mean it in our words

说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
Hurting each other with lies, is all due to our feeling of insecurity

怕抱不紧什麼
Because we are afraid of not being able to grasp something


我不想舍得 不想懂得
I don’t want to let go, I don’t want to understand

谁说割爱 才更深刻
Who said that giving up your love will be more memorable?

彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
Relying on each other is love not burden

能握著手就是 感动的
Being able to hold our hands together is the most touching moment


我愿意
I’m willing

一秒钟 放弃全宇宙
to give up the whole universe in one second

挤在只有我们
and cuddle close together

紧靠的小星球
on a small planet with only us.


我不想舍得 不想懂得
I don’t want to let go, I don’t want to understand

是谁惹谁 言不由衷
Regardless of who provoked who, we didn’t mean it in our words

说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
Hurting each other with lies, is all due to our feeling of insecurity

怕抱不紧什麼
Because we are afraid of not being able to grasp something


我多不舍得 多不懂得
No matter how much I don’t want to let go, no matter how much I don’t understand

谁说割爱 才更深刻
Who said that giving up your love will be more memorable?

彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
Relying on each other is love not burden

能握著手就是 感动的
Being able to hold our hands together is the most touching moment


说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
Hurting each other with lies, is all due to our feeling of insecurity

怕抱不紧什麼
Because we are afraid of not being able to grasp something

我多不舍得 多不懂得
No matter how much I don’t want to let go, no matter how much I don’t understand

谁说割爱 才更深刻
Who said that giving up your love will be more memorable?

彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
Relying on each other is love not burden

能握著手就是 感动的
Being able to hold our hands together is the most touching moment

"Do not regret what you have done, regret what you haven't done."

Lost beauty



遗失的美好 - 张韶涵
Lost beauty

海的思念绵延不绝
The sea's pining is never-ending
终于和天在地平线交会
Finally the sea met the sky at the horizon
爱如果走得够远
If love lasted long enough
应该也会跟幸福相见
It should meet bliss

承诺常常很像蝴蝶
Promises are often like butterflies
美丽的飞盘旋然后不见
Beautifully hovering around, and then they disappear
但我相信你给我的誓言
But I have faith in your vows
就像一定会来的春天
Just like summer will definitely come

我始终带着你爱的微笑
I still carry the smile that you love
一路上寻找我遗失的美好
Looking for the lost beauty
不小心当泪滑过嘴角
Whenever tears carelessly trickle down the edge of my lips
就用你握过的手抹掉
I wipe them away with the hand you've once held

再多的风景也从不停靠
I never stopped no matter how beautiful the scenery was
只一心寻找我遗失的美好
Whole-heartedly searching for the lost beauty
有的人说不清哪里好
No one can explain what it is that's so good about it
但就是谁都替代不了
But it is just irreplaceable

在最开始的那一秒有些事早已经注定要到老
From the first second, certain things have already been destined to last forever
虽然命运爱开玩笑真心会和真心遇到
Destiny likes to pull tricks, but true love will meet in the end.

my feelings at this point of time.

3d animators & artists!U got to watch this! A 3d animation film animated by korean animators(Mesai Animation Team-http://www.mesai.co.kr/)check out their site!amazingly,beautifully animated and rendered!

loved it!great work!amazingly,beautifully animated and rendered!

enjoy:)

P.S turn off my imeem player at the left bottom column!;)

I'm BORED!!!!!!!!not use to staying at home do homework...

:(

This week Homework

-Character animation 2 - layout,blocking stage
-Digital Photography- ex2. 20 images, redo ex1. 9 images
-Art history 2 pages write up report!
-Drawing-ideas for asssignment 1

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anyway,i managed to catch love happens! "Love Happens’’ ,a romantic drama film,is being sold as a romantic comedy but it’s really a Big Cry movie. It filled with true emotions and feelings and i cried at the end of the movie .

Story 3.5/5
Humour 4/5
Acting 3.5/5(I like the parrot in the film!Superb!)
Overall Rating 3.5/5.






:)
next movie i'm going to catch?

500 Days Of Summer
The film tells a story of the relationship between a woman, Summer (Deschanel), who doesn't believe in true love and a man, Tom (Gordon-Levitt), described as a hopeless romantic, who falls in love with her. When Tom is blindsided after his girlfriend Summer dumps him, he shifts back and forth through various periods of their 500 days 'together' to try to figure out where things went wrong. His reflections ultimately lead him to finally rediscover his true passions in life.




My Girlfriend Is An Agent(Korean film!i loved it!)
A Russian organised crime group is set out to steal an advanced chemical weapon from Korea and two secret agents are out to stop them. One is a veteran secret agent named Ahn Soo-ji who is a master of all forms of martial arts and envied by her comrades. Another is a rookie named Lee Jae-joon who's never been out on the field and always goofs up on the job. The two agents don't know each other's secret identity. All that they know is that they hate each other. As a couple that is... Soo-ji and Jae-joon were once a passionate couple until Jae-joon couldn't take her lies anymore. But all Soo-ji was trying to do was hide her secret identity. Nonetheless, the two went on their separate ways and by coincidence bump into each other years later while out on the job. As the two work out their screwy relationship, they go behind each other's backs to fulfil their mission to save the world.



:)hehe cant wait to watch it!

Used to sing these songs..

and feel like singing again

Nicholas Teo-当你孤单你会想起谁 When You Are Lonely, Who Will You Think Of


你的心情总在飞 什么事都要去追 想抓住一点安慰
You are always moody and you try to pursue all matters, wanting to hold on to some comfort
你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊 你最害怕孤单的滋味
You like to walk in the middle of crowds because you're scared of being lonely
你的心那么脆 一碰就会碎 经不起一点风吹
Your heart is so fragile it will break with only a touch - it cannot fight against the wind
你的身边总是要许多人陪 你最害怕每天的天黑
You always need people to stay by your side, because you're afraid of the daily darkness

但是天总会黑 人总要离别
But there are times when the sky will turn dark, and people will have to leave
谁也不能永远陪谁
There isn't anyone who can accompany another person forever
而孤单的 谁都要面对
And the feeling of being lonely is something everyone must face
不只是你我会感觉到疲惫
It not only exhausts you but it tires me as well

当你孤单你会想起谁
When you are lonely, who will you think of?
你想不想找个人来陪
Do you want someone to accompany you?
你的快乐伤悲 只有我能体会
Your happiness and sorrow can only be felt by me
让我再陪你走一回
So let me be with you for a while

你的心情总在飞 什么事都要去追 想抓住一点安慰
You are always moody and you try to pursue all matters, wanting to hold on to some comfort
你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊 你最害怕孤单的滋味
You like to walk in the middle of crowds because you're scared of being lonely
你的心那么脆 一碰就会碎 经不起一点风吹
Your heart is so fragile it will break with only a touch, it cannot fight against the wind
你的身边总是要许多人陪 你最害怕每天的天黑
You always need people to stay by your side, because you're afraid of the daily darkness

但是天总会黑 人总要离别
But there are times when the sky will turn dark, and people will have to leave
谁也不能永远陪谁
There isn't anyone who can accompany another person forever
而孤单的 谁都要面对
And the feeling of being lonely is something everyone must face
不只是你我会感觉到疲惫
It not only exhausts you but it tires me as well

当你孤单你会想起谁
When you are lonely, who will you think of?
你想不想找个人来陪
Do you want someone to accompany you?
你的快乐伤悲 只有我能体会
Your happiness and sorrow can only be felt by me
让我再陪你走一回
So let me be with you for a while
当你孤单你会想起谁
When you are lonely, who will you think of?
你想不想找个人来陪
Do you want someone to accompany you?
你的快乐伤悲 只有我能体会
Your happiness and sorrow can only be felt by me
让我再陪你走一回
So let me be with you for a while

你的快乐伤悲 只有我能体会
Your happiness and sorrow can only be felt by me
让我再陪你走一回
So let me be with you for a while
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Roy Qiu Ze-邱澤-妳知道我愛妳


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Wang Xin Ling -当你



如果有一天
我回到从前
回到最原始的我
你是否会觉得我不错

如果有一天
我离你遥远
不能再和你相约
你是否会发觉我已经说再见

当你的眼睛眯着笑
当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好
你从来不知道
想你想你
也能成为嗜好

当你说今天的烦恼
当你说夜深你睡不着
我想对你说
却害怕都说错
还喜欢你
知不知道

如果有一天
梦想都实现
回忆都成了永远
你是否还会记得今天

如果有一天
我们都发觉
原来什么都可以
无论是否还会停留在这里

也许可是让我想得太多
也许该回到没我
梦里和相遇
就毫不犹豫
大声的说我要说

当你的眼睛眯着笑
当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好
你从来不知道
想你想你
也能成为嗜好

啦～啦～
我想对你说
却害怕都说错
还喜欢你
知不知道
啦～啦～

If one day I return to the past
return to the beginning of me
will you feel that I'm not bad?
If one day I leave you for a far place
could no longer meet you
will you feel that I have said goodbye?

When you narrow your eyes for a smile
when you drink Coke, when you make noise
I want to treat you well, but you never know
thinking of you has became my hobby

When you spoke of today's worries
when you said you could not sleep at night
I wanted to tell you but I am afraid I say it wrongly
I like you very much, do you know that?

If one day dream comes true
Memories has became forever, will you still remember today
If one day we feel that
Actually anything is possible
No matter if it will stay here or not

Maybe emptiness caused me to think too much
Maybe I should return to my quilt, we will meet in my dream
Then I will not hesitant to tell you loudly what I want to say

la la la la la la la la
la la la la la la la la la
I wanted to tell you but I am afraid I say it wrongly
I like you very much, do you know that?

what if someday i found out that you lied to me?..

Truth will last forever,lies are soon to be exposed..

I rather you tell me personally than i find it out by myself.

please don't make me doubt my trust in you..

affected.

ScHool Started!New Semester!~

No more HolidayS!

Piles of Assignments!Burning midnight Oil Soon~ StresseD*

Well,
let's see what modules i have registered...
hmmm...

Portfolio Development- 20pages of my Best work(Postfolio),DemoReel,Design Website,Namecards and Poster.

Character Animation 2- 3 major assignment *pantomime*dialog*rigging

Drawing- Sketch Book(Drawing of Children,Kids and Elderly,Gesture sketches,Animals Drawing)2 major assignment*A2 Drawing of a Child & an elderly*A2 Design your own character.Visit zoo,Visit Polo club

Motion Capture- 2 major assignment *set up machines and capture(Pratical)*Bring into MotionBuilder-Cleaning Up.

Art History - Weekly Journal,Weekly Research,Visit musuem.Topic:Realism

Digital Photography-??Dont know yet..lesson tomorrow!looking forward to it!should be quite fun!Take Pictures!!~editing of pictures!

6 Modules..

I'll be adding one more module in too!

Friday-Personal work-aside from school work- focus on animation!going to do some simple & short animation clip-! school work...is never enough!need to build up my animation skills!

i got to buck UP!

4 more months to graduation!March!March!March 2010!!

Just 4 more months to gOoo...

got bitten by Cookie..

I find her so cute..gave her bread,and patted her head while she eats the bread..
Out of a sudden,she bite my right hand,index finger !..she bite so hard that it leaves 4 teeths marks on my finger...and my finger started to swell..and bleed..

I cried.

not because i got bitten..is because of the whole situation that happened reminds me of what happened in the past..and i feel so hurt again..


U loved that someone alot,and you did alot of things for him,wanted him to feel happy.So as long as he feels happy,u'll be happy right?you want to bring him happiness especially when he's with you.So you will do whatever that will please him.

As time goes by,he hurts you deeply by throwing his temper at you when he's moody,tired..and you don't know what did you do wrong that caused him to be so unhappy over you...or over small things which you don't mean to make the two of you to be unhappy.

No matter how hard you try to apologise or explain,he's still feels unhappy about it..and he ignores you,leaves you alone even if you and him quarrel at anywhere,hang your calls when you try to call him,throw away your hand when you try to hold him back alot of times,walked off,scolds you vulgarities..
..the process of trying to make him feel better and not to be mad at you..is difficult..

and then you started to feel that why you always makes him angry,why are you always the one?and feeling useless that you can't make the one you love to be happy...why he can use vulgarities on you isn't you the one he loves?why you have to keep on trying to make him feel better?why do we quarrel so often?why you always have to be the one to try to make things better when you feel that its just a small thing,you dont even start the quarrel or even is misunderstanding..?Why small little things must quarrel and get angry about it?

feeling hurt...trying to understand what happened everytime..

and as time passes by,everything was too late..
in the end you got hurt....you are tired of everything...
and he got hurt too..

The most painful feeling i have in me..I guess..is this feeling..